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[LizasLilProtege]

Blech, a touchy area for me. The only boyfriends I've had have been so bad, these are almost painful to admit to. "Boyfriend" #1 (and I use this term VERY loosely) was literally just some guy who was in a class with me that, I really didn't feel ANY attraction towards, but was the first person who ever showed any interest in me that way, so when he asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend, I said yes. Bad move. This kid had a BAD bad reputation, got me cutting classes with him to make out and get drunk, but anytime someone was around, suddenly oh, he didn't know who I was. Prick... That lasted a grand total of about a week before I told him I don't think this is right and I don't think I should be doing this. He got pissed off over it, and I thought that was the end of it. Til I had to go to summer school that year, and this part I realize sounds like it's gotta be bull because it's so out there, but the guy saw I was going to classes over the summer too and took advantage of me showing up late one day. Grabbed me by the wrist and started yanking me with him towards the gates at the back of the campus to sneak out, and when I tried to pull away, he pulls a pocketknife out of his pocket and tells me to shut the f*** up. Long story short, he got me into a secluded area and raped me. I didn't report it but started going to the counseling group on campus the following year because I wasn't over it, and found out he'd done the same exact thing to another girl in there. So now I get to live with that guilt on my conscience forever. Lovely, eh? So then I decided I was scared of guys and tried going same gender. My first girlfriend was this cute redhead girl that was in one of my classes that I got along great with, and the whole thing ended up more like a best friends with benefits type thing. All seemed great there til she went away to college (she was 3 years older than me). Shortly after getting there, she tells me she met a guy who wanted to go out with her and asked what I thought of it. I told her to do whatever she felt she needed to do. Next time I spoke to her, she said they **** on the first date. Needless to say, that's the last time I spoke to her, I broke off anything that might've still been there right then and there.Went back to the guy side of the line with some guy I met online who lives in the same state. The age difference didn't bother me at the time like it does now...I was 17, he was 46. Despite it being very illegal, I decided to pursue it anyway. Never got caught or anything, but the guy did turn out to be a huge creeper. (In retrospect, yeah, big surprise, right?) Semi-stalkerish. He still follows me online many places (this, luckily - knock on wood - isn't one of them) despite my using different screen names. And this is 8 years later. Nothing I can really do since he hasn't done anything threatening, so it's mostly just a huge annoyance.Went back to the girl side of the line and had my first SERIOUS girlfriend that left me really effed up mentally. We seemed to want all the same things for the future, and yet, soon as she went away to college, guess what happened? See ending for the first girlfriend. I hate when history repeats itself. But at least we're friends again now.I move onto another girl, although slightly younger this time (which is unlike me since I ususally always go for older, either gender) and I thought for sure with this girl, we were going to move to Boston and get married. And then somebody had to drag her to some youth ministry thing and get her super involved in religion. Which isn't bad, I respect that, but... She made the decision that she couldn't be having relations with another female if she wanted to save her soul. Sigh... We're still very close, just not that way anymore, obviously. So I move on to another girl. This one messed me up even worse than the second one, and was my longest lasting one of any relationship I've been in. And guess how it ended? .....see girlfriends 1 and 2. I'm honestly beginning to believe I'm either cursed or just that inadequate as a lover. (Or, y'know, that they were still trying to figure themselves out when they were with me and weren't through with their experimentation yet.)Somewhere around there, I get involved with the sweetest guy on the face of the planet who it seemed I had EVERYTHING in common with. Once again, age difference didn't bug me since he pretty much looked like a young Paul McCartney. And then....I find out he's married. Not JUST married, but married to a chick with the same name as me. *HEADDESK HEADDESK HEADDESK* But the worst part is...I never officially *stopped* seeing him. I still see him every few months >_> So I hook up with one more girl and that lasted a little less than a year. Once again, the college curse strikes again. I've made a vow to myself that if I ever date another girl, I'm never dating another college age girl ever, EVER again. Hopefully beyond that age, they've got themselves more figured out. But as for right now, I'm at a very F*** DATING stage in my life and won't lie that I'm still bitter about many of them.

[Tatl Tael Link]

Never had a girlfriend/boyfriend. :-/ Nobody likes me. -hangs head-

[joedert]

idk around 6 i think i dumped them somethings ppl just dont agree on lol

[XCzAr14X]

I have had a total of 7 girlfriends, 2 dumped me, for various reasons, 3 becuase i moved away not very fun 1 because she said she wasnt ready for a meaningful relationship and one now, I hope that this one will last longer then the last ones have